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When I first joined TWTD many years ago, it took me some courage to do so. it was the first forum I ever joined. For many years I just observed from a far due to being dyslexic but I wanted to post stuff. So I went for it. It still takes me half hour to write a simple post. I constantly read and re-edit it repeatedly. I’ve always been slow, struggle to take things on board especially when it comes to reading. But you know what TWTD helped me with that. Yeah sure im pulled up constantly on stuff but I learnt more about grammar on here then I did in school.
So now for the hard bit. Not sure where it went wrong for me on TWTD. I used to come on here and started to feel low because I didn’t agree with a lot what was being said. Not being able to debate an argument does not help so I didn’t say anything. Instead I started to feel low & felt there was something wrong with me. Yes I know I should have stayed on the football forum but couldn’t help myself gravitating towards the general tab. It was obvious I was very much against the grain & the beliefs of the many on here. So I stopped coming on here for a while as I felt in a darker place whenever I did. Which hurt quite a bit. I’ve always enjoyed it on here. It was my home page for well over a decade. Call me insensitive, stupid, pathetic, weird. It was how I felt. I Losed my love for ITFC which has been my passion my whole life & lost my zest for life because of it. It sounds stupid when I say it aloud.
Somewhere down the line I turned to drink and in November I woke up in hospital. Long story but embarrassingly was found in a ponds edge at Hampstead Heath in the early hours one cold morning. Apparently if a jogger hadn’t found me I may not be here. As I said embarrassing.
In my attempt to give up the drink and at my partners request she told me to turn to music (Mainly hip hop/rap for my sins) as that was a happy place for me once. That’s how I found Tom Macdonald. His song “Best Rapper Ever” saved me from turning back to drink. The song is about Addiction & I listen to it everyday as it lifts me. When I want a drink I listen to it. It’s helped me massively so far & it’s probably why I feel strongly about defending him.
Im fully aware now it wasn’t the wisest decision putting his song on here. My intent was to show black content creators/bloggers from all different backgrounds who experienced racism in real life breaking down the song & letting people know they interpretation of it. Instead i got it into my head that people on a football forum knew better then they did. As I said handled it badly.
I’m one of these people who would never change someones beliefs. Only they themselves can do that. I hate the name calling or treating people poorly when they don’t agree with those beliefs. Some people are mentally weak like myself & take things to heart. Just my thoughts.
I know people have told me to come off you tube, but for me that is my happy place. It honestly is. Sadly it seems that TWTD is my bad place. So sadly after 22 years (got my first pc in 1999)this is my last post.
It’s took me over five hours to write this so If you got to the end, thank you I’m truly humbled. Not sure why I wanted to write this. It seems weird. But needed to do it for myself. Anyway apologies again to all I insulted, especially leitrimblue
Everything you said above 100% & I would never abandon my core belief of dignity and respect for Black people or anyone else for that matter
It just angers me seeing the divide is getting wider and wider. My whole point of the videos (for me anyway) was to show that the black people wasnt offended by it when many thought it would. I thought that was a good thing but obviously not.
He has done whole videos where he has called out the police discrimination regarding if they were black, which once again brings up a lot of debate which is a good thing. Thats why I enjoy the reaction videos. Especially his. His songs are controversial & enjoy peoples take it on it. Good or bad its wise to take everything in.
Soz for not replying as much as i can. Partners Birthday. She got the hump as it is. She says Ive been on here way to much
Not upset about people disagreeing with me. People disagree all the time. Most of those videos I linked liked his song and his lyrics. You agree or disagree fair enough.
No one has called me racist. Ive been made to feel racist because i dont believe in things that Im made to feel I should. Like the BLM movement it had a legitimate right to be heard & I was on board 100%. But for me it was taken over & I’m no longer interested in anything they have to say.
So by that logic I am a racist. Feeling like this has left me angry, depressed & suicidal. So seeing a videos where black people saying that white people shouldnt feel guilty came as a lift.
It got to the point I have been made to feel like an evil person and I have stopped enjoying life because of it. I dont watch or take any interest in ITFC games anymore. Something that what was my main passion in my entire life. Now I feel empty because of it all.
As I said they is 100s. I havent watched all of them. That was one of two videos I hadnt watched which I mistook for others as I copied and pasted some of videos in my you tube history.
As for trying to prove stuff. White people think Tom MacDonald is racist. A huge % of black people do not. That's my whole point. Thats what im trying to prove.,
Because they is so many. I have watched a few and the ones I saw the bloggers liked it as a whole . I thought I had seen this one (likewise with one other) but I hadnt. They is over 3 to 4 hours of material at least that i posted on here. But dont regret posting it even if I hadnt seen it. I like to see people with different view points. Something that many have forgotten how to do
Afraid so. Probably because Ive been made to feel a racist by the left. As I said lots of black guys love his music. But who are the ones who attack him? White people.
Havent looked through all the videos as i said they is 100s of them. But watch many what was there i linked in like this one. If you choose not to watch it thats your choice
All these guys dancing & bouncing their head to the music but you said it hurt your eyes and ears. I took it from that you dont like rap music. We now live in a world where many will feel thats racist
Nothing wrong with disagreeing with lyrics. That is what rap is about. But are these black guys up in arms about it like you guys are? No. Why is that? How comes these guys break it down logically in a reasonable way. Unlike guys on here where everybody is racist if you have different view to them?
Press on one of the reaction videos. They can explain it better then me. Like this one. Besides shouldn't a balck person opinion be listened to more then I with songs like this?
Ok do you want me to show the dozens more of these videos by black people saying he is right. Infact I cant find one black person on you tube that doesnt agree with what he is saying. Say his has his finger on the pulse. Its funny the only people I can who finds his videos offense are white people
How would the club go about that? People will be wearing masks so you wont be able to see who is booing? & if a steward said he heard them boo. How would he then be able to prove it?
Problem is football is a business. If You went to some grounds they could be more then half the attendance booing. Do you think the club will give all them fans lifetime bans? Personally i cant see it.
Throw in the possible fights between the fans I can see many clubs issuing their players not to do it anymore. Just my opinion & all
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