| Graham Thorpe took his own life on 20:23 - Aug 13 with 355 views | Melford |
| Graham Thorpe took his own life on 10:41 - Aug 12 by textbackup |
I do often wonder how hard it must be from going from an elite sportsman/women, training daily, the travel, the laughter with teams mates… to retiring and not having that routine built into your life.
I know he’s been retired a while, but reads as though he’s struggled for sometime.
I know when I had 7 weeks off with a bust back, the laying about with no routine threw me all out. |
Last year I had a pretty bad arm break, triple fracture. I was off for 3 months before then I'd ran the kitchen on my own for 3 years with about 2 weeks holiday in all that time, it was touch and go for a bit whether I'd everything back in terms of being to use it properly and there was a possibility I could be finished as a Chef.
I'd lost all my routine and couldn't do all the things I'd normally do in my spare time. Couldn't even hold an X Box controller to play games.
They got 2 chefs in to replace me because and I knew that meant trouble ahead because it had been just me for 3 years with trying to get a second in. No way 3 full time chefs are going to kept on so something had to give. 3 into 2 doesn't go.
I'd struggled with drinking before and had gone to AA before but drifted away with no meetings during lockdown. I'd never touched spirits before or drank in the day,and I ended up like Phil Mitchell in Eastenders, sat on my own with a litre of Vodka neat from the bottle.
I was living in an annexe cottage place at the bottom of my parent's garden and my mum would pop in to do my washing and clean up because I couldn't do it and I'd be passed out smashed on the floor at 2 in the afternoon an a Tuesday.
It all came to a head because I was in total self-destruct mode. I went on a Turning Point course over the summer and started going to AA meetings again. I moved back in with my parents because I was in no state at that point to look after myself, which is pretty embarrassing to say as a 45 year old bloke.
I'm getting there though, I remember there were days when I did check the live trains app I have on my phone to see when the freight trains ran through Mark's Tey. It is something I have thought about at times, go up there and just end it.
Currently I'm going OK, I go to my AA meetings and do some gardening volunteering in Sudbury on my days off. Got myself a moped spend my evenings pootling around the villages of Suffolk/North Essex. |  |
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| Graham Thorpe took his own life on 20:52 - Aug 13 with 293 views | BLUEBEAT |
Extremely sad but have to say I feel for the train driver who may now have his own psychological issues due to no fault of his own. |  |
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