| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... 22:25 - Feb 1 with 7744 views | monytowbray |
...on and off snce I was 15 years old.
I used to think it was because of the way the chemicals in my brain work, but it turns out I’m really just miserable because I’m forced to support Ipswich f*cking Town FC.
I’m on the verge of giving up until Evans p1sses off, the last 12 years of this club have been an embarrassment with nothing to cheer about when the season was all said and done. I dread to think the % of my income I’ve spent over that time in hope I’d be there for when something special did happen.
And the worst thing? I feel like 8 year old me, the one that fell in love with ITFC and would have supported them through thick and thin, would be really disappointed I feel that way.
Maybe I’m over reacting, but been reflecting far too heavy about the last 12 years over this run and wondering if we’ll ever have something to celebrate ever again. It’s madness.
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 01:54 - Feb 2 with 1993 views | jeera |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 01:52 - Feb 2 by BlueBadger |
Give over, you f*cking melt. |
Probably not the best choice of words there. He has said this since:
I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... by Terra_Farma 1 Feb 2020 23:39I declared myself I suffer from anxiety and like Callis, I also take medication, but I don't ram it down peoples throats.
For me, i am slightly embarrassed by admitting I take medication because I have a chemical imbalance in my brain. I feel less of a man admitting that, particularly in a public forum.
This post was a struggle for me.
We all have our own s h i t to deal with.
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 01:57 - Feb 2 with 1988 views | Sarge |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 22:44 - Feb 1 by Oxford_Blue |
You’re overreacting.
It’s just a game. |
You wanna see some true overreacting?
We are now an independent country by Oxford_Blue 31 Jan 2020 23:05Fantastic feeling.
A victory for democracy despite the efforts of the woke liberal left to thwart democracy and parliament.
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Proper melt. [Post edited 2 Feb 2020 1:57]
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 01:59 - Feb 2 with 1987 views | Sarge |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 01:54 - Feb 2 by jeera |
Probably not the best choice of words there. He has said this since:
I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... by Terra_Farma 1 Feb 2020 23:39I declared myself I suffer from anxiety and like Callis, I also take medication, but I don't ram it down peoples throats.
For me, i am slightly embarrassed by admitting I take medication because I have a chemical imbalance in my brain. I feel less of a man admitting that, particularly in a public forum.
This post was a struggle for me.
We all have our own s h i t to deal with.
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Doesn’t give him the right to dig other people out. If anything it should give a better understanding. Regardless of all that though, the OP was clearly a joke. | | | |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 01:59 - Feb 2 with 1980 views | C_HealyIsAPleasure |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 23:39 - Feb 1 by Terra_Farma |
I declared myself I suffer from anxiety and like Callis, I also take medication, but I don't ram it down peoples throats.
For me, i am slightly embarrassed by admitting I take medication because I have a chemical imbalance in my brain. I feel less of a man admitting that, particularly in a public forum.
This post was a struggle for me.
We all have our own s h i t to deal with. |
Yeah, I’ll be honest here and admit I glossed over your post and only saw the bit at the end
Fair one, and apologies |  |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 02:03 - Feb 2 with 1969 views | jeera |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 01:59 - Feb 2 by Sarge |
Doesn’t give him the right to dig other people out. If anything it should give a better understanding. Regardless of all that though, the OP was clearly a joke. |
The thread had turned a corner and there's no benefit to reigniting things.
Edit: Rephrased. [Post edited 2 Feb 2020 2:27]
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:29 - Feb 2 with 1903 views | itfcjoe |
I have good mental health, but football really does put me in an absolute funk at times - and it is all kicks in the teeth with this club.
One good season in the last decade and more and don’t see it ending. I barely slept Tuesday just running that Rotherham game through in my head, it’s mental.
I’d like to reassure you that the good times will be worth it, but football doesn’t feel as cyclical as it used to |  |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:32 - Feb 2 with 1894 views | textbackup |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:29 - Feb 2 by itfcjoe |
I have good mental health, but football really does put me in an absolute funk at times - and it is all kicks in the teeth with this club.
One good season in the last decade and more and don’t see it ending. I barely slept Tuesday just running that Rotherham game through in my head, it’s mental.
I’d like to reassure you that the good times will be worth it, but football doesn’t feel as cyclical as it used to |
lastnight was bad for me, barely spoke at home, put a downer on the whole house, because a bunch of over paid no hope bottle jobs couldn't muster up a fight to win a game of football.
I was a big believer that the tables turn in football, and good times come and go, but you know what that's bo11ocks, you make your own luck in this world and we have no idea how to put a plan in place. we are fcked |  |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:37 - Feb 2 with 1878 views | itfcjoe |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:32 - Feb 2 by textbackup |
lastnight was bad for me, barely spoke at home, put a downer on the whole house, because a bunch of over paid no hope bottle jobs couldn't muster up a fight to win a game of football.
I was a big believer that the tables turn in football, and good times come and go, but you know what that's bo11ocks, you make your own luck in this world and we have no idea how to put a plan in place. we are fcked |
I stayed in and had a few beers because I’d have been like that had I gone home. Didn’t get back too late but basically went straight to bed. It’s pathetic really.
I was never one of those that thought relegation would be a good thing, but I did think if it happened we could use it to build something to bounce back with. We just aren’t and you look at the teams outperforming us and you can tell how they want to play, we don’t impose ourselves on games unless we score early.
Been a few false dawns, but ultimately 21 points from last 18 games tells the story, it’s basically half a season of low mid table results. And the manager got a 5 year extension. How?! | |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:43 - Feb 2 with 1860 views | artsbossbeard |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:32 - Feb 2 by textbackup |
lastnight was bad for me, barely spoke at home, put a downer on the whole house, because a bunch of over paid no hope bottle jobs couldn't muster up a fight to win a game of football.
I was a big believer that the tables turn in football, and good times come and go, but you know what that's bo11ocks, you make your own luck in this world and we have no idea how to put a plan in place. we are fcked |
I was quite chuffed to stay out afterwards and have some beers and food in town, this def helps with my post match mood.
My mood in the ground was worse as 3 of my match companions binned it off at half time and I sat alone contemplating whether I'll renew next season or pick & choose games.
I don't do myself any favours though as also managed to get myself embroiled in a late night drunken argument online with one town fan who sent me a rather sinister facebook message this morning telling me he knew what my lad looked like with a smiley face at the end of his message.
This poxy football club. |  |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:48 - Feb 2 with 1839 views | itfcjoe |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:43 - Feb 2 by artsbossbeard |
I was quite chuffed to stay out afterwards and have some beers and food in town, this def helps with my post match mood.
My mood in the ground was worse as 3 of my match companions binned it off at half time and I sat alone contemplating whether I'll renew next season or pick & choose games.
I don't do myself any favours though as also managed to get myself embroiled in a late night drunken argument online with one town fan who sent me a rather sinister facebook message this morning telling me he knew what my lad looked like with a smiley face at the end of his message.
This poxy football club. |
I had that tw@t from Fanzone in conjunction with Bed sheet Rich trying to bait me on Twitter, blokes an absolute weapon | |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:48 - Feb 2 with 1833 views | textbackup |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:37 - Feb 2 by itfcjoe |
I stayed in and had a few beers because I’d have been like that had I gone home. Didn’t get back too late but basically went straight to bed. It’s pathetic really.
I was never one of those that thought relegation would be a good thing, but I did think if it happened we could use it to build something to bounce back with. We just aren’t and you look at the teams outperforming us and you can tell how they want to play, we don’t impose ourselves on games unless we score early.
Been a few false dawns, but ultimately 21 points from last 18 games tells the story, it’s basically half a season of low mid table results. And the manager got a 5 year extension. How?! |
that contract thing has blown my mind. cant get my head round it at all.
evans is a car crash owner.
all I can see happening is we stay down, players go, we are left with sod all quality.
we actually are a nothing club, tinpot sht | |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:58 - Feb 2 with 1814 views | brogansnose |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:48 - Feb 2 by textbackup |
that contract thing has blown my mind. cant get my head round it at all.
evans is a car crash owner.
all I can see happening is we stay down, players go, we are left with sod all quality.
we actually are a nothing club, tinpot sht |
Yesterday, although I've been thinking this all season but fighting it off, it really hit home to me that our future is fkn bleak which leads me to question WTF am I doing ? I had my first cig for years outside the lower North after the fourth went in and there was a group of us out there who had pretty much been mentally kicked in the stomach.
Mind you , apparently , its 'just a game' and don't take it seriously. FFS. |  | | |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 09:01 - Feb 2 with 1801 views | monytowbray |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 00:54 - Feb 2 by King_ding_a_lin_g |
I have struggled for many years with MH issues and have been on medication for a number of years. I don’t know any of you guys/girls and I don’t post much on TWTD but this thread seems like a good opportunity to say (type) out loud about it to like minded people.
Most days I wake up and feel like crap... can’t explain why because I hold down a good job, have very supportive parents who would do anything for me and a girlfriend who is fantastically understanding and is committed to making me happy. But most days I just wake up, feel like utter crap and act my way through the day, pretending everything is hunkydory. From the outside it is but from the inside I’m screaming for help.
Town winning is such a buzz. Since going to my first game in 1990 with my Dad, who has been supporting since the 50’s (the last time we were in such a lowly position!) I have been to hundreds of games since then with him and my brother. Lucky enough to witness promotion under Lyall and then Burley but unlucky enough to have been promised so much from those times to what we’re seeing these days. But Town winning or even just playing well has always had enough of an impact to just shine a little light on my day and give me a little spring in my step... results like today just make me feel hopeless.
Anyway, pathetic or not, there’s a correlation between my mental health and Ipswich winning. I wish I could see it as ‘just a game’ but i can’t help thinking that Town’s demise over the last however many years correlates so well with my own.
I can’t help thinking that if I was a Leicester fan or a Sheffield Utd fan that I would wake up with that little hit of enthusiasm. God forbid if my Dad had been born in Bury and not Ipswich.
Apologies for venting and not actually making a point or adding to the OP. [Post edited 2 Feb 2020 0:57]
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Vent away.
It sounds like you really need to say something to your family, at least then you can feel comfortable in your own skin.
I did CBT this year for the first time and I regret not doing it sooner. I would recommend it to anyone. | |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 09:03 - Feb 2 with 1796 views | textbackup |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:58 - Feb 2 by brogansnose |
Yesterday, although I've been thinking this all season but fighting it off, it really hit home to me that our future is fkn bleak which leads me to question WTF am I doing ? I had my first cig for years outside the lower North after the fourth went in and there was a group of us out there who had pretty much been mentally kicked in the stomach.
Mind you , apparently , its 'just a game' and don't take it seriously. FFS. |
gets worse than that for me, im going to sunderland next week lol
my 8 year old nephew picked it as a game he wanted to do, so me and brother in law said sod it we'll go..... the kids still dead set on going, so for his sake only we are still making the trip, cant bring him down to our grumpy arsehol level just yet! | |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 09:08 - Feb 2 with 1782 views | NewcyBlue |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 09:03 - Feb 2 by textbackup |
gets worse than that for me, im going to sunderland next week lol
my 8 year old nephew picked it as a game he wanted to do, so me and brother in law said sod it we'll go..... the kids still dead set on going, so for his sake only we are still making the trip, cant bring him down to our grumpy arsehol level just yet! |
Seb got invited to his best friends birthday party at the local laser quest thing. Unsurprisingly he would rather do that.
So that’s us next weekend.
You coming up on the coach? |  |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 09:10 - Feb 2 with 1775 views | brogansnose |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 09:03 - Feb 2 by textbackup |
gets worse than that for me, im going to sunderland next week lol
my 8 year old nephew picked it as a game he wanted to do, so me and brother in law said sod it we'll go..... the kids still dead set on going, so for his sake only we are still making the trip, cant bring him down to our grumpy arsehol level just yet! |
We very nearly booked up for Sunderland and left yesterday thinking TF we didn't. My governers are box holders at P'boro and I work with a load Norwich. I got grief all game from them , which hasn't helped, but hopefully the swamp living mud scum will think better than to start in person come Monday morning. | | | |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 09:18 - Feb 2 with 1756 views | textbackup |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 09:08 - Feb 2 by NewcyBlue |
Seb got invited to his best friends birthday party at the local laser quest thing. Unsurprisingly he would rather do that.
So that’s us next weekend.
You coming up on the coach? |
Na, brother in law driving, so no idea of times etc as of yet.
is there even an away pub to aim for? | |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 09:34 - Feb 2 with 1730 views | fabian_illness |
Town games have become a chore.
So much so that I haven’t been to the last couple, first games I’ve intentionally missed since having a season ticket.
It all feels a bit fake at the moment, bit like glueing some bright feathers on a chicken and calling it a peacock.
Big build up, wheel the players out to toe the party line, blow up this massive ITFC ballon then ‘pop’, empty, nothing. |  | | |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 11:50 - Feb 2 with 1653 views | Ryorry |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 00:54 - Feb 2 by King_ding_a_lin_g |
I have struggled for many years with MH issues and have been on medication for a number of years. I don’t know any of you guys/girls and I don’t post much on TWTD but this thread seems like a good opportunity to say (type) out loud about it to like minded people.
Most days I wake up and feel like crap... can’t explain why because I hold down a good job, have very supportive parents who would do anything for me and a girlfriend who is fantastically understanding and is committed to making me happy. But most days I just wake up, feel like utter crap and act my way through the day, pretending everything is hunkydory. From the outside it is but from the inside I’m screaming for help.
Town winning is such a buzz. Since going to my first game in 1990 with my Dad, who has been supporting since the 50’s (the last time we were in such a lowly position!) I have been to hundreds of games since then with him and my brother. Lucky enough to witness promotion under Lyall and then Burley but unlucky enough to have been promised so much from those times to what we’re seeing these days. But Town winning or even just playing well has always had enough of an impact to just shine a little light on my day and give me a little spring in my step... results like today just make me feel hopeless.
Anyway, pathetic or not, there’s a correlation between my mental health and Ipswich winning. I wish I could see it as ‘just a game’ but i can’t help thinking that Town’s demise over the last however many years correlates so well with my own.
I can’t help thinking that if I was a Leicester fan or a Sheffield Utd fan that I would wake up with that little hit of enthusiasm. God forbid if my Dad had been born in Bury and not Ipswich.
Apologies for venting and not actually making a point or adding to the OP. [Post edited 2 Feb 2020 0:57]
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No need to apologise whatsoever, respect to you & all who've had the guts to express themselves on here, including Callis whose OP has been a catalyst/good outlet.
I think you've made some pretty good points! |  |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 14:20 - Feb 2 with 1600 views | PositivelyPortman |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 01:52 - Feb 2 by BlueBadger |
Give over, you f*cking melt. |
Read all the posts before calling him a ‘melt’. |  |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 14:32 - Feb 2 with 1589 views | Nthsuffolkblue |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 00:54 - Feb 2 by King_ding_a_lin_g |
I have struggled for many years with MH issues and have been on medication for a number of years. I don’t know any of you guys/girls and I don’t post much on TWTD but this thread seems like a good opportunity to say (type) out loud about it to like minded people.
Most days I wake up and feel like crap... can’t explain why because I hold down a good job, have very supportive parents who would do anything for me and a girlfriend who is fantastically understanding and is committed to making me happy. But most days I just wake up, feel like utter crap and act my way through the day, pretending everything is hunkydory. From the outside it is but from the inside I’m screaming for help.
Town winning is such a buzz. Since going to my first game in 1990 with my Dad, who has been supporting since the 50’s (the last time we were in such a lowly position!) I have been to hundreds of games since then with him and my brother. Lucky enough to witness promotion under Lyall and then Burley but unlucky enough to have been promised so much from those times to what we’re seeing these days. But Town winning or even just playing well has always had enough of an impact to just shine a little light on my day and give me a little spring in my step... results like today just make me feel hopeless.
Anyway, pathetic or not, there’s a correlation between my mental health and Ipswich winning. I wish I could see it as ‘just a game’ but i can’t help thinking that Town’s demise over the last however many years correlates so well with my own.
I can’t help thinking that if I was a Leicester fan or a Sheffield Utd fan that I would wake up with that little hit of enthusiasm. God forbid if my Dad had been born in Bury and not Ipswich.
Apologies for venting and not actually making a point or adding to the OP. [Post edited 2 Feb 2020 0:57]
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I think your venting does make a point and I think we can all empathise an awful lot with it too.
We must remember the good times are all the better for the low times but there is no worse feeling than Town getting taught a football lesson (especially if them lot are doing better).
Unfortunately far more teams are unsuccessful than are successful. Our current "poor form" has been for far too long now. I am forever optimistic good times will return but the further we fall, the further away the possibility of them becomes. We have an infrastructure (ground, support, etc) that should easily support a Championship side at least. I have far from given up on this season but I haven't sat through the last two performances. I suspect those that have will have good cause to feel depressed by them. |  |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 15:05 - Feb 2 with 1562 views | N2_Blue |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 09:34 - Feb 2 by fabian_illness |
Town games have become a chore.
So much so that I haven’t been to the last couple, first games I’ve intentionally missed since having a season ticket.
It all feels a bit fake at the moment, bit like glueing some bright feathers on a chicken and calling it a peacock.
Big build up, wheel the players out to toe the party line, blow up this massive ITFC ballon then ‘pop’, empty, nothing. |
You are spot on. I didn't go yesterday despite having a ST, not because I couldn't but because I knew what was coming after the Rotherham game and 200 mile round trip is too much to watch an ailing team in L1.
A lot of people at the club should be made to sit down and read these messages and how it makes people feel, not because of one or two bad results or being bad losers but because of 15 years of a downward spiral and the club slowly dying a death and leaving people without any hope or joy from football. I'm not sure football is cyclical anymore, i don't see the club ever being competitive at top end championship level again anymore. We are a Rotherham type club now with a history, although granted we are not even as good as Rotherham currently which says it all. |  |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 15:07 - Feb 2 with 1562 views | Reuser_is_God |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 08:48 - Feb 2 by itfcjoe |
I had that tw@t from Fanzone in conjunction with Bed sheet Rich trying to bait me on Twitter, blokes an absolute weapon |
He’s a fcuking vvanker that kid. |  |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 15:10 - Feb 2 with 1552 views | ElephantintheRoom |
Take a deep breath and look at the league table.... there are plenty of clubs not doing as well as Ipswich | |
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| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 04:58 - Feb 4 with 1428 views | Terra_Farma |
| I’ve spent almost half my life on anti-depressants... on 00:54 - Feb 2 by King_ding_a_lin_g |
I have struggled for many years with MH issues and have been on medication for a number of years. I don’t know any of you guys/girls and I don’t post much on TWTD but this thread seems like a good opportunity to say (type) out loud about it to like minded people.
Most days I wake up and feel like crap... can’t explain why because I hold down a good job, have very supportive parents who would do anything for me and a girlfriend who is fantastically understanding and is committed to making me happy. But most days I just wake up, feel like utter crap and act my way through the day, pretending everything is hunkydory. From the outside it is but from the inside I’m screaming for help.
Town winning is such a buzz. Since going to my first game in 1990 with my Dad, who has been supporting since the 50’s (the last time we were in such a lowly position!) I have been to hundreds of games since then with him and my brother. Lucky enough to witness promotion under Lyall and then Burley but unlucky enough to have been promised so much from those times to what we’re seeing these days. But Town winning or even just playing well has always had enough of an impact to just shine a little light on my day and give me a little spring in my step... results like today just make me feel hopeless.
Anyway, pathetic or not, there’s a correlation between my mental health and Ipswich winning. I wish I could see it as ‘just a game’ but i can’t help thinking that Town’s demise over the last however many years correlates so well with my own.
I can’t help thinking that if I was a Leicester fan or a Sheffield Utd fan that I would wake up with that little hit of enthusiasm. God forbid if my Dad had been born in Bury and not Ipswich.
Apologies for venting and not actually making a point or adding to the OP. [Post edited 2 Feb 2020 0:57]
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